...quiet, about a lot of things...
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Sunday Scribblings..a tough one.
A Prayer for NOW
I hope I will still become an activist. I hope that I will gain some sort of "esteem" of others, giving my voice more volume. I hope to be a role model. I hope to live up to being a role model..There is a saying from the Special Olympic (for the mentally disabled). The slogan goes like this "Lord let me win, If I can not win, let me be brave in my attempt." I hope to live my life, through all my actions, with that valor and honesty. I hope to pass on to my children, and my children's children this trait. A trait of honest ambition and sense of fair play.
I hope to learn to be more gentle to my self, when things don't go as planned....Things can't always go as planned..I'm not that good..and I don't want to be.
I want to be fierce and sexy and alive. Just as I am. The way I was made, the way I have aged. I want to bask in my years, and stop apologizing for not being twenty. I want to flirt with the occasional box boy and make him blush. I want every one to know I am more woman now...than I was then.
I want to listen to others wiser than myself, and hear their guidance without self defense. I want to learn all I can. I want to snip out the 10% of me that can be snarky and back biting. I want to be careful and precise in all my words and actions.
I want to be bold and unafraid..If attacked, I want to fight back. I never want to provoke. I want to cry when I'm sad..not when I am angry or want to be heard. I want to be grateful..I want to die saying "Thank you". and when I go to heaven and see my God before me...I want HE/SHE to say.. " I told ya you could do it. I always knew you would".
I cant wait to read some other takes on this at Sunday Scribblings.